v. all is full of love
Sep. 21st, 2025 02:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tenderfeelingdespite shit being really hard for a while there, i'm doing pretty good... i need a rest period to recover from stress but it feels like i say that every week and something new comes up every week anyways, LOL
i'm studying japanese again. it's haaaard. only learning kana and knowing absolutely zero kanji right now kind of pisses me off.. i don't want to sound like a kindergartener... but according to my girlfriend i have really good language acquisition skills so i just have to keep at it!
i left my prior online identity for almost two months now, and god it feels so fucking good to be able to be a person and not some pseudo-influencer online. so sick of the drama. so sick of the infighting. of the being scrutinized or treated like some sort of bobblehead and not able to have like. struggles. i could rant about this for hours but i'm just glad to be the fuck out of there.
i'm also planning on getting my bearings in order to move out! it's going to take a while and it's going to be hard but i genuinely think it's better for me to fly the coop as soon as i can. i genuinely cannot stand living here anymore. i love my mother but there comes a point where being around someone who simply refuses to be happy in any way is not a sustainable way to live.
honestly a lot of late 2025 has just felt like this:
in better news, i've been getting into STH again.... sonic was my first ever special interest as a kid and it's felt so warm and wonderful and healing to be able to reconnect with it. on the other hand SO MUCH has happened with the series since i last went here and i'm having to play so much catch up to like, understand what newgen fans are talking about LOL i say this with fondness in my heart.
please see this video i watched with my girlfriend, both of us completely silent during the entire thing because it resonated with us so deeply:
if you're going to bed, goodnight. o(*￣▽￣*)ブ i should do so as well but i am not a particularly wise person.
